~ There comes a time when you want a fairy godmother to come and turn a pumpkin into a sparkling carriage and take you to meet the man of your dreams, but, when the 'change' you wanted is actually going to happen, all of your doubts surfaces blinding you, suffocating you from the inside, making you sick and choking you.

This 'change' is happening and I can feel it with every breath I take and with every smile I manage to bring upon my face.

Should I run? No... A small yet persistent voice tells me never to run and hide since I never did such a thing in my entire life. But the louder and the crazier voice tells me to turn and hide away where I always felt safe and secure, but no matter how loud the voice can get, it fails to deter the smaller voice inside.

I know that life will throw it's gamble straight on my face and I will be there at the edge of the cliff trying to find a balance but I will never give up, run away and hide.

I always believed in this saying that 'god will never give you something for which you cannot do.' With this line etched on my heart and mind, I will go to unknown places and try my best to turn anything into something brighter than it actually looks. [I always thought I am better at it]

My fairy godmother has personified as my job and now the change it will bring in my life is something which I am anxious but crazily excited about with mixture of feelings and the rainbow of emotions.

Life has never looked so unpredictable and every word they mouthed, my breath gets sharper and my heart beats faster. Oh dear god, I know I am strong but please never let me forget that.

I need encouragement and all the support right now :) <3

You never know when your past just knocks you off the edge and all the forgotten memories come flooding back, when finally the world is turning your way and it gets toppled the other way around, you become numb for that moment and the crazy part of you searches him in Facebook through your friends list and you end up feeling really stupid! Finally, you realise that you are better off because he never treated the way you should be treated and you realise that you deserve someone better. But will you meet a better person? One wrong person, all messed up, messes up your life, burn down the trust, making you go through hell to pick up the pieces and mend your heart and when finally you have glued it back together, memories betray you once again. This is one crazy cycle and life itself is crazy. You just have to make sure not to drown in its craziness though.

In the far away land, on a snowy mountain, a young boy stands, covered in warm clothes gazing at the horizon, so many thoughts running through his mind but music always soothes him at a time like this. So he puts on his head phones and drowns himself in the endless stream of dreams he have yet to full fill in his life.

I wish my life was like this painting that I have created and with any colors I want.

 

It took me a long time and most of the world to learn what I know about love and fate and the choices we make, but the heart of it came to me in an instant, while I was chained to a wall and being tortured. I realised, somehow, through the screaming in my mind, that even in that shackled, bloody helplessness, I was still free: free to hate the men who were torturing me, or to forgive them. It doesn't sound like much, I know. But in the flinch and bite of the chain, when it's all you've got, that freedom is a universe of possibility. And the choice you make, between hating and forgiving, can become the story of your life.

The excerpt is from the book Shantaram by Gregory David Roberts.

This particular paragraph really touched me. It says that whatever you go through in life no matter how big or small, you always have a choice and that choice somehow defines who you are. The choices you make today will have an impact tomorrow and ultimately its all lies in your hands.

I have just started reading this book and I hope to finish it sooner despite such hectic schedule I am always hurdled in. For me, time is always so short yet so precious.

Even though I haven't taken this picture, for me this picture says it all, that, it is in our hands to make the right choices and be happy : )

One day on earth movie 10.10.10
An awesome movie with great themes surrounding our every day lives showcasing millions and billions of people on the earth on the particular day. Different cultures and music come alive, the movie makes you smile, cry and uplifts your spirit. It makes you realise that every second of our life is precious and that life itself is precious.

Courtesy to One day on Earth.

Heaven on Earth 

The world is full of people who can pretend to be your compliance, yet you chose to believe other wise. But the sad part is knowing that these people somehow will never change. It's a waste of time to even contemplate so yet better be trusting your self and only self, you can never condemn yourself. So give everything and throw your worries at the wind :)

ever felt like you belong somewhere? i do now after such a long time. the feeling of happiness engulfs you like a warm blanket and you feel like it was meant to be. pick up the pieces and move on, that is what i am doing. good day! :)

imagine the world with no men, no wars but full of fat happy women. 

as seen in the art cafe.

can one imagine that? would it be a better place indeed?

me thinks yes!