~ There comes a time when you want a fairy godmother to come and turn a pumpkin into a sparkling carriage and take you to meet the man of your dreams, but, when the 'change' you wanted is actually going to happen, all of your doubts surfaces blinding you, suffocating you from the inside, making you sick and choking you.

This 'change' is happening and I can feel it with every breath I take and with every smile I manage to bring upon my face.

Should I run? No... A small yet persistent voice tells me never to run and hide since I never did such a thing in my entire life. But the louder and the crazier voice tells me to turn and hide away where I always felt safe and secure, but no matter how loud the voice can get, it fails to deter the smaller voice inside.

I know that life will throw it's gamble straight on my face and I will be there at the edge of the cliff trying to find a balance but I will never give up, run away and hide.

I always believed in this saying that 'god will never give you something for which you cannot do.' With this line etched on my heart and mind, I will go to unknown places and try my best to turn anything into something brighter than it actually looks. [I always thought I am better at it]

My fairy godmother has personified as my job and now the change it will bring in my life is something which I am anxious but crazily excited about with mixture of feelings and the rainbow of emotions.

Life has never looked so unpredictable and every word they mouthed, my breath gets sharper and my heart beats faster. Oh dear god, I know I am strong but please never let me forget that.

I need encouragement and all the support right now :) <3